2 post in one day=lame

i found some of there old stuff before they were signed

WHen you finally trust yourself again

its not really on trusting my self just my feelings
I feel like my feelings get me and over exadurate (spelling) to much..but i can't help

that being said..

i've been talking (seeing) well we are together for a couple weeks now
and i mean i like him alot..
and i mean ALOT
and i feel like i'm getting the same vibe
although some times i feel like i'm comming off to strong
but thats because I'm and idiot
and idk i feel funny (in the good way)
never felt it before with any one
and it kinda scares me because i'm so sick of getting hurt

but i just feel like i dont have to worry about that any more....


3/25/09
well this is just peachy
I've been using my mothers phone for the past 3 months because I can't keep a phone at all
I always lose it or it brakes or some shit
well I've been using it like i would mine texting and talking to my friends

and that amazing boy that i think i'm in love with..but not taking anything to the extreme
him and my mother met today
omg i was a little sceptical about it because of my mom..but what is there to hide, nothing!
so really the only thing that is bothering me is him
Lol
that sounds bad
but my mother seems to scare off any one and every one of my friends and any one i have had a relationship with
and it was totally by accident and i guess my fault for not warning him to not text the phone while i'm at school
i just dont want it happening again..and i feel sick to my stomach..that he's not going to take us any farther...=s
in other words I'm being a pansy bitch
but all i'm saying is this better not happen again
i'm tired of it..
but i guess what ever happens will happen for a reason
and i'm not going to let it ruin me like i always let that stuff do
i'll just eventually get over it i guess!


not much has happened lately
nothing

nope






still nothing
life been boring for a while..but thats just because it usually is around this time
my birthday is in about a month..idk if i'm excited..but i have a car and getting my lisence
what a FUCKING RELEIFE

I think i spelled alot of shit wrong in this but i'm nervous

I dont get people..Ranting and raving

the more your get to know some one
and then one little thing
are your hole friends ship that could have blossomed into better things
get fucked up
for no reason?

and then you guys go through relation ships that suck ass
and you in one..and you dont know how long it will last
and your scared to even talk to them

and they are always complaining that they aren't in one..or people treat them shitty
but your always there wondering when are you going to notice meeeeeeee

Lol

all i want is friend ship now

Blahh

SUNDAYS!

Bleh sundays are always the worst
there the day when you think about your past week
and how much went on
and then the day when every one isn't
talking
and you go into a state of depression
Bleh
idk how I feel right now
but my weekend went to shit
and I'm a lil queen
the first time I'm ever going to admit that
I've been very conceited lately
and all up tight
i dont like it

I just come to realize every one back home is boring now
=[
thats sucks
I miss when all the action was going on
nowI just feel like we are turning in to old cat people
at a very young age
EWWW

and every one here just sucks
LItterually
I can't stand any body

I hate life
=]]

CUT CUT
SCREAM

this is all i ever talk about
or music
BLeh

I can't wait to get my lisence here in like 2-3 months
Then I will finally be at piece with my self
have some freadommm

I'm really sucking at being a friend
haha
like my friends get me shit all the time
and I'm like screw you
"I save my money
or spend it on junk

ANY WAY
the only person i could really even care about at this point
is jessica i let her down to much
Lol..i mean
after I moved i can't live up to any one
BLAH...


Like I said
sunday is the day when you don't make sence
and get depressed

BAI!

Post 6

wow things are really sucking right now
well in a way
and I hate it
some things are like great
and others just suck
it confuses me
it seems once I get one of the main causes of drama out of my life things are much easier
but then something else comes up
there not as bad as befor but still
kyle pisses me off so much
to the point where I go all bitch fest and then he's all like you went off on me
and I dont you just takes it wrong
what else am I suppose to do
I'm not going to let him sit there and hurt me
and then when I do talk to him about it
He uses the excuse "i fell asleep"...when he replys to it at 4 IN THE MORNING
He still has ALOT of growing up to do
and Its getting to the point where i dont know when to believe him
LIke He's prolly telling me the truth but he just does things or says things at the wrong time to make me disbelieve it
and like
i did something very like ide know how to explain it..
but it was for him
and he turns around and does things like that


on the other hand
me and jessica are besties again
I'm going with her to get her tounge peirced
"lucky dog"
I'm so glad things are working out with us
it makes me happy
=]

I'm recording with matt miller soon
YAY FOR RECORDING!

I have like 7 songs I want recorded
I think I'm sick though
UH OH
I get sick every time I'm about to record
WTF
any way
Kyle makes me mad..(idk what to do with him)
jessica is my bestie after a year of fighting
and I'm record
Thats about it

BLeh

today sucked
Idkw
Its just one of those days where all you do is think..
and your just pissed all day and yeah...
Prolly cause it was so -F-ING cold out side
any way
i'm bored as hell trying to stay off msn and myspace
that stuff is so boring
I think every one is just like tired of me...
I'm kinda tired of myself
i hate small towns
I feel lke watching some one get reallllyyy hurt
(see what I mean with the pissy attitude)
any way I have nothing to talk about..
every one is so boring and no fun any more
I'm prolly gonna see jenny this weekend I haven't seen that chika sence before summer
theres a game friday but I have other plans...
um..Yeah...so I'm going to go..
milk is grows...
but I'm going to drink it any way just cause
I need to gain some weight
but I like being this skinny
any bigger and I feel icky

aight bye
PEACE
-charlie

10/20/08

I'm so glad that anna and kyle are deciding to put there differences
behind them. I'm so glad all this damn drama is out of the way.
it was really hard going to be juggling the 2 of them.
now I can set my mind to other things...
well not completely, I still think about them majorly..DUH
any way
so I think My laryngitis is giving up FINALLy..
I drank like tons of tea and honey today, felt better right away
things are shaping up and thats a good sign....
SO audi inveited me to her church
lmao
it was not for me...
It felt wrong in there...Lol..I'm not sure thats a good thing...=/
audi is so cute I heart her alot...Lol..when she dances it cracks me up..Lol
she's awesome,,
I'm thinking of getting a hair cut
I need one really bad..I like the colors but I'm starting to look like a cave man...Thats not good!!
lol...i'm not sure though...maybe I'll go like clean cut instead of the hardcore punkish
Lol..Yeah right..I'd feel weird not being myself
but really Its getting on my nerves....
I need suggestions??
I say lol to much..I'm going to try and stop..
some times..
i feel like I'm really annoying..(i know I spelled that wrong)
every one tells me I'm not
I know I can be...
But they all love me...god
I couldn't have better people in my life right now
one in paticular<3..(i think I spelled that wrong 2)


any way..I need sleep
I need to work off this sickness
BLECH
its like 10:30
any way

Later
-charlie