Post 6

wow things are really sucking right now
well in a way
and I hate it
some things are like great
and others just suck
it confuses me
it seems once I get one of the main causes of drama out of my life things are much easier
but then something else comes up
there not as bad as befor but still
kyle pisses me off so much
to the point where I go all bitch fest and then he's all like you went off on me
and I dont you just takes it wrong
what else am I suppose to do
I'm not going to let him sit there and hurt me
and then when I do talk to him about it
He uses the excuse "i fell asleep"...when he replys to it at 4 IN THE MORNING
He still has ALOT of growing up to do
and Its getting to the point where i dont know when to believe him
LIke He's prolly telling me the truth but he just does things or says things at the wrong time to make me disbelieve it
and like
i did something very like ide know how to explain it..
but it was for him
and he turns around and does things like that


on the other hand
me and jessica are besties again
I'm going with her to get her tounge peirced
"lucky dog"
I'm so glad things are working out with us
it makes me happy
=]

I'm recording with matt miller soon
YAY FOR RECORDING!

I have like 7 songs I want recorded
I think I'm sick though
UH OH
I get sick every time I'm about to record
WTF
any way
Kyle makes me mad..(idk what to do with him)
jessica is my bestie after a year of fighting
and I'm record
Thats about it

BLeh

today sucked
Idkw
Its just one of those days where all you do is think..
and your just pissed all day and yeah...
Prolly cause it was so -F-ING cold out side
any way
i'm bored as hell trying to stay off msn and myspace
that stuff is so boring
I think every one is just like tired of me...
I'm kinda tired of myself
i hate small towns
I feel lke watching some one get reallllyyy hurt
(see what I mean with the pissy attitude)
any way I have nothing to talk about..
every one is so boring and no fun any more
I'm prolly gonna see jenny this weekend I haven't seen that chika sence before summer
theres a game friday but I have other plans...
um..Yeah...so I'm going to go..
milk is grows...
but I'm going to drink it any way just cause
I need to gain some weight
but I like being this skinny
any bigger and I feel icky

aight bye
PEACE
-charlie

10/20/08

I'm so glad that anna and kyle are deciding to put there differences
behind them. I'm so glad all this damn drama is out of the way.
it was really hard going to be juggling the 2 of them.
now I can set my mind to other things...
well not completely, I still think about them majorly..DUH
any way
so I think My laryngitis is giving up FINALLy..
I drank like tons of tea and honey today, felt better right away
things are shaping up and thats a good sign....
SO audi inveited me to her church
lmao
it was not for me...
It felt wrong in there...Lol..I'm not sure thats a good thing...=/
audi is so cute I heart her alot...Lol..when she dances it cracks me up..Lol
she's awesome,,
I'm thinking of getting a hair cut
I need one really bad..I like the colors but I'm starting to look like a cave man...Thats not good!!
lol...i'm not sure though...maybe I'll go like clean cut instead of the hardcore punkish
Lol..Yeah right..I'd feel weird not being myself
but really Its getting on my nerves....
I need suggestions??
I say lol to much..I'm going to try and stop..
some times..
i feel like I'm really annoying..(i know I spelled that wrong)
every one tells me I'm not
I know I can be...
But they all love me...god
I couldn't have better people in my life right now
one in paticular<3..(i think I spelled that wrong 2)


any way..I need sleep
I need to work off this sickness
BLECH
its like 10:30
any way

Later
-charlie